Colorado: learning the ways of the mountains...

4.16.10

Well, here I am... Beautiful Colorado.

After a pretty lengthy job search I found a job at the Vail Marriott as a valet. Never even thought of being a valet before. But right now in the "mud season," as they call it here, I'm very thankful to have found a job. But
many things are telling me that this is not just a job. For starters, there will be times that I will make a boat load of cash, which I really need to be a regular occurrence. Actually, the money I make will be directly dependant upon my performance. I was advised recently that I would flourish in that kind of job because I'm a strategist and a hard worker and great at serving people with excellence. So, even though I wasn't sure about it at first, I'm now realizing this is huge.

Another reason this is not just a job is that I've worked harder than ever before to get it. You see, I've been on this journey of discovering what it means to be a son with a Father who is God. When I started learning this, about two years ago, I was a mess. I had lived for a while as a baby Christian who was very used to relying directly on God to do stuff for me. Just waiting around to be fed and crying a lot. Jealous of those who had what I knew I could get if I would take the initiative. Don't get me wrong, I did work hard to try and move my life forward, but my issue that held me back wasn't a lack of activity, but the lack of perspective. I would try to move forward, but a spirit of religion, a poverty mentality, and a view of myself as a weak baby kept me only pushing until I received resistance. Then I would get angry at God and others for not helping me. But, my problem was in the lack of confidence that comes from being a son who's Father is God Himself. God longs for my partnership and sonship in everything--not just what looks "spiritual." That sounds like a lot more fun than it really is... I mean, don't get me wrong, it has provided times of intense joy, but it has also been really hard to get up and try to walk after falling so many times. It has really surprised me how important the human tasks of just normal life (job, eating, sleeping, friendship, money, fun) are to Father as I've walked with Him. He really cares for my well being which includes all of those... And more. Maybe a wife, eh? But, I'm discovering life in the spirit to be a wild ride that never seems to stop being interesting, to say the least. Me getting this job is both a blessing and the result of my days of walking into places and putting in applications and networking and proving myself in my last job which I really didn't want. So... Not just waiting for something to come along which is what I thought trust meant. I'll tell you this much, it takes much more trust to pray and then wisely make decisions and move on them than to pray and wait for the situations you have hated for years to be fixed by God. The latter is life as a spiritual baby, not as a young adult.

Anyways... Those are my ramblings. Otherwise I'm doing good. Kinda looking for another place to live where I'll have a living room to chill in. Kinda dreaming of buying a house and starting a hostel here in the Vail valley.

Finding God... Letting myself be found. Round and round we go.